putting out a hand... waving at somone, giving a smile

Posted By: James

I'm tending towards shy but i just don't get out much and don't have expience with large groups of people, i'm someone you wouldn't believe if i typed how i am, you'd need to meet me to really know that i am a creative honest child at heart with a few self perceptions about limitations, i find i'm exploring who i am alot and i've not stoped, since i graduated it's been a challenging learning experience, I find that what holds me back the most is how the community i thought would maybe be there isn't really there unless you know the people who are kind open permissive and incouraging, but i don't know anyone because i have always been a little shy, i don't find it hard to separate and exclude myself i find it most hard to include myself and give myself permission to relax enjoy and feel confident, i'd like to be recognized as a Jenuine honest and creatively expressive, a real person. what do i say to make me understood, ... i talk about my experiences, i've traveled, i've learned about organic farming with wwoofing organization, and Katimavik, i've learned about myself by being different, introverted, shy spiritual, dyslexic, Add, and have come out as being more real than anyone in vancouver can imagine, but because they don't know me i hardly get a chance to feel heard aknoledge and understood, those whould help, people are too distracted and boored, they want to fill their time up with interesting things. I'm only interesting if you give me a chance and look me in the eyes. people are afraid to give a little time, meet once, look someone in the eyes. accept that they or i feel vulnerable, i don't mind feeling vulnerable, it's a natural state, i feel more special and unique. not afraid.

I'm even handsome but i have to waite till someone is willing to just be, not many people can sit. and be, i even truggle but i've go a head start so if you'd like to meet i'm here waiting.

sincerely a person not an add not a problem, not a toy.